Not Really Sure...

So I didn't have anything else to do tonight, so I figured I'd journal...

Life has been a huge, long, scary at times, roller coaster ride. It's the ride that you've never ridden, and you never know when the next turn is coming, or when the next big dip, or loop is coming your way! :( It's so hard to accept the fact that life is just coming and there's nothing you can do to control the ride! The only comfort I have is knowing that just as fast as this downhill dip, or this loop came, it will pass! Each day I wake up hoping for a better day and hoping for the day to come where I can get through it without thinking about anything, or stressing about anything! :( Of course I do have my good days, and life is totally amazing, but there is just one more thing I have to do. One thing that will help me get to that day. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed! These lyrics help me get through some hard times, and help me to not feel so alone...

"Again and again I ask myself why
I don't think that I have any tears left to cry
My soul is so tired, I'm longing for rest
I'm giving my all and I'm doing my best
It hurts to move on from the place I am in
But you understand where I've been
And you reassure me, its time to start over again.
All of this pain and confusion I'm going through
I'm turning it over to you
and willing to trust its the right thing to do."

Life will always be hard, that's just how it is- and I'm starting to accept that. Life seriously has a way of surprising us, and I'm waiting for that surprise! :) I've been in the dip on the roller coaster that makes your tummy hurt, but that only means that the up hill climb is coming!! :)

Dream Job!!!

After much searching...it's safe to say that I have found my dream job!! :) I can't really remember how I stumbled across this job in the first place, but I think I was researching Event Planning Companies in different cities, to try and get a feel for where I might want to internship or work.

I'm hoping to be able to apply for an internship for this summer to gain a little experience. I'm so excited and can only keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best! :)

The 23rd Floor Events Center

Prop 8

Patience....

PATIENCE:
1: bearing pains or trials calmly or without complaint
2: manifesting forbearance under provocation or strain
3: not hasty or impetuous
4: steadfast despite opposition, difficulty, or adversity
5 a: able or willing to bear

What a hard concept to learn! As Americans today we want everything right now, this instant, immediately. I've noticed that up here in our apartments, if our Internet takes longer than 5 seconds to load a page, we grow impatient. But I'm not just talking about fast Internet, fast food, or fast service...I'm talking about patience in trials. I struggle with that one. Why is it that we have to go through these trials and wait them out? :) Can't we just submit our will to the Father, tell Him we recognize the trial and be done?! I guess it just does not work like that! Well anyway...that's what's going on in my life right now. Learning patience through my trials. Maybe I'll get there one day! :)

Turning The Page

I know they say that the Lord will never give you more than you can handle, but I just wish he didn't trust me so much!

Right now my heart is feeling extremely over-whelmed. Feelings of anxiousness, inadequacy, helplessness, frustration...and all of the above! I know the Lord gave us our faith and this gospel so that we could rely on it when we're down, and needing that extra push to keep on going. Life keeps on going...I just need to remember that!

Today is just another grain of sand in the Saharas of eternity. Neal A. Maxwell

I'm The Relief Society...WHAT?!

So I got a call from my bishop yesterday...oh boy! Well he set up a meeting for this morning at 9am. And of course we all knew what was next...

So I met with the bishop, and next thing I knew I walked out of his office the new Relief Society President...wow. I was literally speechless! I know the Lord never gives us anything we can't handle so I accepted the call with a willing heart. I'm excited to get started and to get to know the lovely girls in my ward. Now I'm just in the process of getting my presidency together and filling the callings that need to be filled. I know that the next semester I will find myself on my knees and in the temple a lot! I'm excited though, with this huge responsibility comes blessings from serving the Lord righteously, and I'm willing to do the work! :)

It's funny how the Lord blesses you and prepares you. We had a lesson in New Testament earlier this week about rank, and about how the world would like us to think that one calling is ranked higher than another, but that's not how the Lord looks at it. When I met with the bishop today, he had the same insight for me. Throughout the past couple of weeks, I've found myself drawn to the scriptures and falling to knees in prayer more often...I know that the Lord was preparing me for this great call and I'm so grateful for this opportunity!

Here goes nothing!

ROAD TRIP!! :)

So today started like any other Saturday...sleeping in of course!! :) A friend called and told me that he would be hitch hiking to Jackson Hole...and then of course the motherly instincts kicked in! :) So my 2 best friends and I, hopped in the car and off we went! An hour later Elise, Jenny, Laughlin, and I found ourselves in Jackson Hole, Wyoming! :) NICE!

Driving!! Laughlin, Jenny, and I

Us girls!! LOVE THEM! (Elise, Jenny, and Me!)

Most of our drive was up the canyon...absolutely amazing!

Nice Moose we found on our way home!

Welcome back to Idaho! (Actually it's the name of a drive-in movie theater in Driggs, Idaho)


Oh she is my favorite! Great redneck...she'd fit in back home!


She got a little sleepy!


Weird little potato guys. :)


Well this is what we do to entertain ourselves in Idaho!


So very fun! :)