Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Not Really Sure...

So I didn't have anything else to do tonight, so I figured I'd journal...

Life has been a huge, long, scary at times, roller coaster ride. It's the ride that you've never ridden, and you never know when the next turn is coming, or when the next big dip, or loop is coming your way! :( It's so hard to accept the fact that life is just coming and there's nothing you can do to control the ride! The only comfort I have is knowing that just as fast as this downhill dip, or this loop came, it will pass! Each day I wake up hoping for a better day and hoping for the day to come where I can get through it without thinking about anything, or stressing about anything! :( Of course I do have my good days, and life is totally amazing, but there is just one more thing I have to do. One thing that will help me get to that day. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed! These lyrics help me get through some hard times, and help me to not feel so alone...

"Again and again I ask myself why
I don't think that I have any tears left to cry
My soul is so tired, I'm longing for rest
I'm giving my all and I'm doing my best
It hurts to move on from the place I am in
But you understand where I've been
And you reassure me, its time to start over again.
All of this pain and confusion I'm going through
I'm turning it over to you
and willing to trust its the right thing to do."

Life will always be hard, that's just how it is- and I'm starting to accept that. Life seriously has a way of surprising us, and I'm waiting for that surprise! :) I've been in the dip on the roller coaster that makes your tummy hurt, but that only means that the up hill climb is coming!! :)

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Dream Job!!!

After much searching...it's safe to say that I have found my dream job!! :) I can't really remember how I stumbled across this job in the first place, but I think I was researching Event Planning Companies in different cities, to try and get a feel for where I might want to internship or work.

I'm hoping to be able to apply for an internship for this summer to gain a little experience. I'm so excited and can only keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best! :)

The 23rd Floor Events Center

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Prop 8

Saturday, October 11, 2008


1: bearing pains or trials calmly or without complaint
2: manifesting forbearance under provocation or strain
3: not hasty or impetuous
4: steadfast despite opposition, difficulty, or adversity
5 a: able or willing to bear

What a hard concept to learn! As Americans today we want everything right now, this instant, immediately. I've noticed that up here in our apartments, if our Internet takes longer than 5 seconds to load a page, we grow impatient. But I'm not just talking about fast Internet, fast food, or fast service...I'm talking about patience in trials. I struggle with that one. Why is it that we have to go through these trials and wait them out? :) Can't we just submit our will to the Father, tell Him we recognize the trial and be done?! I guess it just does not work like that! Well anyway...that's what's going on in my life right now. Learning patience through my trials. Maybe I'll get there one day! :)